Mental Health Days
Mental health days are a great idea. That's what some poeple call those days when you're just feeling burned out and overwhelmed and you call in sick to work because you need to take care of your spirit and morale. It's a perfectly legitimate use of a sick days,...
My Life Is Better Now That I’m Bigger
Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. Previous post on fatness. I've worked hard for decades on my negative thinking and self-punishing behaviors. With...
Not Dieting
Right at this moment, a container of homemade brownies sits behind me as I work in my cubicle. In the past I would have actively resisted them while knowing I would love to pop one in my mouth. Today I tell myself I can have as many as I want at any time. In the...
Do Not Diet
Previous post on fatness. Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. Yes, I've made another U-turn in my nutritional beliefs. In my ongoing search for...
Not Afraid to Give My Age
My 46th birthday was in July, but I'm feeling like it's time to start calling myself 47. Why not? It's only nine months away. In the meantime: my Christmas application tells me there are 76 days until Christmas! October through December is my favorite time of the year.
Change
Previous post on fatness. Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. I've now read Women Food and God twice and have started When Food is Love: Exploring...
Pet Psychic!
See Do Dogs See Dead People? for our dog's mysterious behavior that led me to a pet psychic. Part of good research is having an open mind and distinguishing the valuable information from the bull-#$%^. I believe any random person taking a guess at what's going on with...
“Use Your Best Judgment”
When someone says "use your best judgment" they're not being specific about what they want. It's a worrying phrase to me because when someone uses it, they're often trying to warn me to meet some standard of behavior or dress, but they're being unclear. "Use...
Night Screaming
I wish my problem were sleep walking or talking in my sleep. Instead, in the past few months, I've developed the behavior of waking up in the middle of the night screaming. Yes, I wake up at the top of a piercing shriek, with my mouth wide open and a light sweat...
What’s Heavier Than Weight?
Previous post on fatness. Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. What's heavier than weight is the inner critic and judge that rules my brain and...
Do Dogs See Dead People?
I’m pretty sure our dog saw things I couldn’t.
Idiots on The Road
Bob: Honey, there were a lot of idiots on the road tonight. Me: Really? You know, when I drive I never notice people acting like idiots. Pause. Me: Oh. I guess that means it's me. Bob said nothing and kept his eyes on his shoes.