Would You Trust This God?
Sometimes my online dating activity yields a new friend. I've been corresponding with Mark for a couple of months now. He's a minister and we've had some interesting phone conversations about faith: my lack of, and his enduring. Sometimes I feel like a lost soul that...
Happy New Year!
On the first Monday of 2004, last January, I remember sitting at my corporate desk job at 8:15 a.m. I had just had many wonderful days off for the holidays and was now going through the "withdrawal" feeling of getting up early again and having to be at my job which I...
A singer who dreams of being a waitress
Why my new restaurant job is good for me: 1. Constant interaction with others leaves little time for sitting and crying. 2. Teamwork feeds my need for community. 3. My co-workers are fun people who make me laugh and help me keep perspective on my life. 4. The...
40th birthday – a year and a half away
I am the most beautiful, amazing sweater you ever saw and it's the only one left and it's perfect for you and it's in your size and it's on sale. You feel so lucky; it seems too good to be true. How is it possible that this beautiful sweater was overlooked by everyone...
You see, there’s this guy…
The last time I let myself flutter: pregnant hope billowed out big as a sail, rocked playfully on the waves of possibility and flirting, swoopingly, swoopingly. But it ended with a SPLAT: glistening raw redness of a watermelon cruelly lurched from the back of a truck....
The closest I get to a miracle
At my new restaurant job, I've been hampered by my lack of confidence as a server and my lack of experience. I'm hoping that as I get better at it, the money will flow, but for now I get lots and lots of two-person tables. The experienced people get the big parties,...
Today Is the Last Day of Your Life So Far
I apologize in advance if this post is disjointed and confusing. It's time for my annual Christmas free association. Merry Christmas, 2004. My favorite Christmas movie is Bad Santa with Billy Bob Thornton. It was in the theaters last year at this time and it's great....
1914 Christmas Truce of World War I
Have you ever heard of what happened on the front of World War I on Christmas Day 1914? The Americans and Germans stopped killing each other just long enough to spontaneously celebrate Christmas together, right on the battlefield between their trenches. I’d never...
My Christmas Offering to You
Click here to go to my music website, and then click on the icon of a Christmas gift for my version of "Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas." It's for all of us who are single for the holidays, don't have children and might not even have family in the area. Here's...
It’s (still not) a Wonderful Life
Every time I see that movie I think, "Why don't they just let the poor guy jump?" But I do like the original, animated "How the Grinch Stole Christmas." I bawl every time.
“¿Por qué no eres casada?”
The irony is thicker than my American accent.
New Life
Oh my god -- now I remember what life is like when you have a real job at which you can't just sit and blog all day long. Look at how many days go by in between postings! I feel terrible about this, but doubt there's any remedy. I started this blog last June when I...