Chicana on the Outside
I disappoint and surprise everyone all the time.
Why suffer? My view of the pope
In the Feb 28 2005 Newsweek article "Precious Suffering" the pope's delicate health is described in horrifying detail. I was most disturbed by reading that on February 1st, Pope John Paul spent four hours “essentially choking to death” because of mucus-build up in his...
Never-Married vs. Divorced Wrap-Up
Thanks to everyone who responded to my Divorced Vs. Never-Married anguish. My friends DeShawn, Lon and Kenn particularly helped me see "So, why are you still single?" as a question that could be more about my first date's fears than about my defects. Lon (a guy)...
Never-Married vs. Divorced
Thanks to Jackie for sending me the link to an article called "Society's stigma jumps from divorced to never-wed". To Jackie's friend, Tina, from whom Jackie received the link I say, "Yes, we're doomed, screwed, f**ked, and fated to look like losers wherever we go, me...
Single-Never-Married
I didn’t know bad poetry was a side effect of a crappy love life. It’s a boring subject. I’m bored with it. I am sick of my own one-color whining and my same old story. Blah blah blah. I wish I could end my self-judgement. I wish I could stop seeing myself as a loser...
like putting on a wet bathing suit
So many dates, so many attempts. Like being lost at sea.It felt so good to come in, dry off, get warm, date just one person over and over again, finally catching my breath on solid ground.Another false start. Break time over.Lurch back into the surf.
Mothers who yield custody
Just tossing this out and seeing if I get any response:My sister struggles as the single mother of a nine-year-old special needs child who is autistic and has chronic emotional tantrums (including injuring my sister) every day, often more than once a day. Judy has...
The Big Gig
Last night was totally, totally great. Neal, Jean and I were tighter than ever, my singing felt great and the music was rhythmic, energetic, totally dance-able. The sound system was so good people could actually understand the words and later they told me they caught...
help i can’t stop writing bad poetry
I've got to pull my focus off of my suck rat love life and concentrate on today: tonight is the big gig! I'm doing two new songs and a "new" one that's really an old one but I revised the lyrics (I do that a lot). The rehearsal with Neal (guitar) and Jean (percussion)...
Dating, Part Infinity plus one
So This Is Love porous membrane surrounds me fingers push sharp points, but it doesn't break trouble breathing, trouble moving panic starts like an old womb, my prison feels familiar yet hostile I want out my arms are extended, but it stretches with me trouble seeing...
Valentine’s Day Poem 1
"On, on --"there's a light out on my string of pretty lightshas it always been out?did it used to be on, but recently burned out?i replaced the bulb, but it doesn't go on.i checked the wiring, but it's fineall the other bulbs are oni just can't get that one oni have...
Valentine’s Day Poem 2
Valentine's Day Sucks Dog Penis and So Does My Love LifeValentine's Day sucks dog penis and so does my love life.- rr2/12/05