Previous post on fatness. Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. Geneen Roth's Women Food and God isn't about GOD God, but about love and freedom from...
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“You Don’t Look Like You’ve Gained Weight”
Previous post on fatness. Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. People think this is a nice thing to say and I'm sure it is for most people. I'm sure...
Face Blindness (Prosopagnosia)
At my wedding celebration with Bob in 2008, I met some of his family for the first time. To prepare, I spent months studying a photo of them because I didn't want to fail to recognize them. It took that long for their faces to sink in to my memory because I suffer...
Middle-Aged Struggle
Previous post on fatness. Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. Because of personal stressors, I put on almost ten pounds between May 8th and June...
I Really Don’t Like Sunshine
Winter is my favorite season, followed by autumn, when the days get short and the darkness takes over. This year Chicago got a white Christmas with inches of snow falling on Christmas night. It must have been beautiful. But I wouldn't know because I spent Christmas...
Remedying a Bad Week with Cake
So I had a rough summer, a not-much-better trip to South America and came back feeling more depressed than ever. I ate a lot. By the end of September, I had begun to pull out of it. I got back to my healthy eating habits. I started to lose the weight I put on in the...
Family
I've been saying it for years: You can't cure families; you can only prevent them.
Oh, Yeah. Depression.
I was talking to someone this week about my worries about Bob's health, my health, my upcoming trip and my fears about life in general. She asked me how long I have been depressed. I was surprised by this. I didn't realize I was depressed. But as I turned it over in...
Losing It
Good news: it looks like Bob will be home Monday night. Bad news: when I called the in-patient rehab center a month ago and asked what items I should buy for Bob's convalescence, the admissions officer reassured me that the physical therapist would order those items...
You Can’t Tell Me Death Will Be Worse
I find life uncomfortable enough without taking risks to experience more of it.
Easter
My Easter memories are of wanting this holiday to be as big and bright as Christmas, but it never was. Maybe part of the reason Easter has never been as big as Christmas is that Easter coincides with the spring solstice and Christmas coincides with the winter solstice...
From the inside
Back when I was single (a little over a year ago legally and three years ago in practice), I used to wonder what it would be like to be married. It seemed unfair that the general answer seemed to be "Every marriage is different." What the heck did that mean? Why...
Fat Again, Naturally
Previous post on fatness. Disclaimer: since I've become properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and obsession with food and weight. It's sad to me now. I don't remember where, but I once read that most women will spread out around the...
Stress
I feel stressed out by my continuing unemployed state. I'm still temping, but there's only a month left of that job. I've been in and out of unemployment my whole life and have never had such a hard time finding a job. It might seem good that I just got married...
Car Crash
So I cut back to four shifts a week because my body can't take the physical pain of waitressing full-time and I'm driving more because the Chicago Transit Authority train line that I take is getting worse every week. These changes mean I'm not using my monthly CTA...