Do you ever get tired of being yourself? Do you ever think, "I don't want to be me anymore?" I get so sick of being me. I get SO sick of being me. I'm not the only one, right?
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Guess what? I'm feeling better. The combination of the tapping and crying I did earlier in the week, having a turbo-level chiropractor visit, re-reading my positive blog posts and support from friends has pulled me out of my crying jag. Dr. Ashley Frer can work...
That WAS My Best
Catherine Shanahan's Deep Nutrition asserts that what our mothers ate even before they were pregnant with us affects how our bodies grow and our capacity for health. Likewise, the model for relationships that our caretakers provided when we were children affects how...
The Word “Lady,” Part Two (Please Stop Calling Me That)
Here's part one of my discussion of the word "lady." Maybe read that first. Since that post last September, I've become more vocal about not wanting to be called a lady, but my female Midwestern friends (and male friends) continue to do it. "Hello, ladies." "Have any...
Mother’s English Tea Cookies
These have been my favorite cookies for a long time. Only stores on the West Coast of the USA carry them. I can't get them in Chicago, but I grew up with them and try to bring some back whenever I'm out there. I've been known to blow through a whole package in no...
Depression, Part 6,000
It takes me down. It takes me right down and I have no idea what the trigger was. What's the reason for this bleak mood? Maybe there isn't any. I've fallen and I can't get up. Even sugar won't be my friend these days. It's stopped helping, leaving me locked in an...
Depression Can Look Just Plain Mean
Lindy West's Ladies Be Moody: The Sad Sack Women of Anti-Depressant Commercials makes a few excellent points, but this is my favorite: depression does not only manifest as low-energy sadness that saps you of your will to get out of bed. That's one way it can...
Stranger Here: A memoir on Weight Loss Surgery
Previous post on weight & health: Someone asked me about being pregnant Jen Larsen gives a stunningly honest account of her weight loss through surgery in Stranger Here: How Weight-Loss Surgery Transformed My Body and Messed with My Head. With a publication...
Fatness Equals Happiness?
Me, age 2 Previous post on weight and health: Thin or happy? It might really be a choice Yesterday I was feeling bad because I outgrew another pair of pants and was down to one skirt that was appropriate for the workplace that I could wear comfortably (now I've...
My Favorite Thing Is Still Cake
From my favorite bakery ever: Central Continental Bakery in Mt. Prospect, Illinois USA. I have very specific tastes when it comes to cake and this bakery is the only one I've ever found that makes my personal ideal of what white buttercream frosting should taste...
I Want to Bend Easily Again
(Can you find the dog in this photo?) Previous post on this topic: Gaining 25 pounds in 3 months I want to be part of the fat acceptance movement, but I'm having doubts. The 25 pounds I put on since October have added to and subtracted from my happiness. I love...
Die, Inner Critic, Die!
Sitting in my weekly EFT tapping circle, I tapped as I listened to topics like family dynamics, self-nurture and the feeling of not being good enough. As I tapped, my feelings of not being good enough and being too fat, grew. "I really hate myself," I thought, as I...
Blasting Through Zombie-Like Depression
A one-on-one session with Lili Betancourt has melted the frozen suppressed anger that’s had me down (see yesterday's blog photo). Locked into emotions I couldn’t release on my own, unable to focus or function, I made an emergency appointment for her powerful blend of...
Not Quite Alone
The Black Dog by Regina Rodríguez-Martin I took this photo with my Macbook Pro. It's me with a black dog and another black dog ("black dog" is a metphor for depression). I felt very alone when I took this even though I wasn't quite alone.
One Dog’s Reaction to Extreme Emotion
The owner of the dog lay in bed until after 10:00 a.m. with the dog's body curled up next to hers in the blankets. After a brief phone call, she began to weep loudly. The dog, still in his relaxed position, pricked up his ears. At the first shriek, the dog's head...