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Kat Jernigan Pottery (Talkin’ ‘Bout Nipples)

Kat Jernigan Pottery (Talkin’ ‘Bout Nipples)

At the annual Glenwood Arts Fest yesterday, I could not resist purchasing this mug. It sat among a table full of pottery, with several items that had ersatz testicles or penises. After feeling my usual weariness of more phallic imagery and wondering why we can't have...

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Grieving My Sweet Tooth

Grieving My Sweet Tooth

My physical and emotional dependence on processed sugar has caused me decades of pain. My physical need for all-day-long sweets started when I was a child. My childhood was so frightening that I developed unhealthy ways to cope and one of them was with cookies, ice...

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Doing Depression Right

Previous post on weight & health: No change Working with an NRT practitioner since 2016 has taught me that there are endless ways our health can be messed up.  We develop physical problems and/or inherit them from our parents, grandparents and ancestral line. We...

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No Change

No Change

Previous post on weight & health: I'm going for effortless weight loss  No change. No change at all...discouragement..disgust...I'm the fattest I've ever been. Blah, blah, blah. (But wait -- things did change after I posted this! Read this!)

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Please, American White Women

Please, American White Women

The open letter technique is a clichéd way to address a challenging topic and when I see a writer begin with "Dear Democratic Party" or "Dear President Trump" I think, "If you really want to address those people, why post your letter here?" But I'm doing it because...

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#10Year Damn Challenge

#10Year Damn Challenge

So there's another asinine challenge going around and way too many people are participating. This one is particularly cruel because only very young people can do it with dignity. It's the #10YearChallenge and what you do is post a photo of yourself from ten years ago...

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I’m Going for Effortless Weight Loss

I’m Going for Effortless Weight Loss

This post follows up on my recent posts about wanting to be less fat: How do I stop the pain and Waiting for weight to wane. Since I became fat, I've known that losing this fat will not happen with dieting or eating in any way that I can't sustain for the rest of my...

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“I’m sorry I tried to kill myself”

“I’m sorry I tried to kill myself”

When someone tries to end their life, but it doesn't work and they end up in the hospital, one thing they often say is "I'm sorry." But is that really necessary? What are they apologizing for? Having a mind distorted by mental illness? Being a screw-up? If we...

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Waiting for Weight to Wane

Waiting for Weight to Wane

Previous post on weight & health: How do I stop the pain? I've been trying to lose weight ever since I became fat in 2013. In my last post, I wrote about working with a natural health practitioner, who said my healing process had a spiritual element (ugh!). She...

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How Do I Stop the Pain?

How Do I Stop the Pain?

Previous post on weight & health: Not getting better I run a depression support group Meetup and this week we talked about ways to treat depression other than with medication. I've happily been on anti-depressants since 2010, so I'm not knocking meds, but I wanted...

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Tippett Responded!

Tippett Responded!

Even though my review of a podcast on depression wasn't favorable, I tweeted it and tagged the host, Krista Tippett, and the show itself, On Being. And Tippett responded!  This is great, although I'm not sure what she means by "it often works this cyclical way." Does...

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It’s Back (Depression)

It’s Back (Depression)

I didn't even get one month before the depression came back. It rolled back over me on Monday and as hard as I've been trying to pretend "as if," I can't stop it. The twelve step programs advocate "fake it til you make it." Act the way you wish you were and eventually...

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