Previous post on food/fatness: Fatness - let's review Read my full weight & health journey by using desktop view and scrolling down on the right to the section called Fat? Me, too. My physical and emotional dependence on processed sugar has caused me decades of...
My dad and me, June 2018 I was pretty big Previous post on fatness: Get thinner without losing weight To each post that's about weight I've put links that lead you through those posts. This lets you read the story of my weight like a book (with photos. I dislike blogs...
Previous post on weight & health: Doing depression right I've been eating very healthfully for five weeks. I'm happy to fit into my size 2XL shirts (down from my 3XL shirts), to be able to wear my rings again, and to hear my friends say I look slimmer. But the...
Previous post on weight & health: No change Working with an NRT practitioner since 2016 has taught me that there are endless ways our health can be messed up. We develop physical problems and/or inherit them from our parents, grandparents and ancestral line. We...
Previous post on weight & health: I'm going for effortless weight loss No change. No change at all...discouragement..disgust...I'm the fattest I've ever been. Blah, blah, blah. (But wait -- things did change after I posted this! Read this!)
This post follows up on my recent posts about wanting to be less fat: How do I stop the pain and Waiting for weight to wane. Since I became fat, I've known that losing this fat will not happen with dieting or eating in any way that I can't sustain for the rest of my...
When someone tries to end their life, but it doesn't work and they end up in the hospital, one thing they often say is "I'm sorry." But is that really necessary? What are they apologizing for? Having a mind distorted by mental illness? Being a screw-up? If we...
Previous post on weight & health: How do I stop the pain? I've been trying to lose weight ever since I became fat in 2013. In my last post, I wrote about working with a natural health practitioner, who said my healing process had a spiritual element (ugh!). She...
Previous post on weight & health: Not getting better I run a depression support group Meetup and this week we talked about ways to treat depression other than with medication. I've happily been on anti-depressants since 2010, so I'm not knocking meds, but I wanted...
My depressions usually last for months or weeks, and in the past it's been years. Earlier this year I had a depression that lasted for six weeks, but since then I've had two episodes that were much shorter: a week at the end of March, and one day this past weekend....
Even though my review of a podcast on depression wasn't favorable, I tweeted it and tagged the host, Krista Tippett, and the show itself, On Being. And Tippett responded! This is great, although I'm not sure what she means by "it often works this cyclical way." Does...
I didn't even get one month before the depression came back. It rolled back over me on Monday and as hard as I've been trying to pretend "as if," I can't stop it. The twelve step programs advocate "fake it til you make it." Act the way you wish you were and eventually...
My depression lifted! I'm SO grateful. Last Tuesday I went to one of my part-time jobs managing a co-working space, and when I started interacting with people I noticed that I felt like smiling for the first time in weeks. In the next moment I noticed that I felt...
HA HA HA HA HA! https://twitter.com/ChicanaOnEdge/status/971088839522603008
Previous post on weight & health: Weight loosening I recently revised the labels on my blog. If you go to the labels cloud in the right column (in desktop view) and click on fatness, you'll see that I've been obsessed with food, diets, exercise, losing and gaining...