Previous post on weight & health: No change Working with an NRT practitioner since 2016 has taught me that there are endless ways our health can be messed up. We develop physical problems and/or inherit them from our parents, grandparents and ancestral line. We...
Previous post on weight & health: I'm going for effortless weight loss No change. No change at all...discouragement..disgust...I'm the fattest I've ever been. Blah, blah, blah. (But wait -- things did change after I posted this! Read this!)
This post follows up on my recent posts about wanting to be less fat: How do I stop the pain and Waiting for weight to wane. Since I became fat, I've known that losing this fat will not happen with dieting or eating in any way that I can't sustain for the rest of my...
When someone tries to end their life, but it doesn't work and they end up in the hospital, one thing they often say is "I'm sorry." But is that really necessary? What are they apologizing for? Having a mind distorted by mental illness? Being a screw-up? If we...
Previous post on weight & health: How do I stop the pain? I've been trying to lose weight ever since I became fat in 2013. In my last post, I wrote about working with a natural health practitioner, who said my healing process had a spiritual element (ugh!). She...
Previous post on weight & health: Not getting better I run a depression support group Meetup and this week we talked about ways to treat depression other than with medication. I've happily been on anti-depressants since 2010, so I'm not knocking meds, but I wanted...
My depressions usually last for months or weeks, and in the past it's been years. Earlier this year I had a depression that lasted for six weeks, but since then I've had two episodes that were much shorter: a week at the end of March, and one day this past weekend....
Even though my review of a podcast on depression wasn't favorable, I tweeted it and tagged the host, Krista Tippett, and the show itself, On Being. And Tippett responded! This is great, although I'm not sure what she means by "it often works this cyclical way." Does...
I didn't even get one month before the depression came back. It rolled back over me on Monday and as hard as I've been trying to pretend "as if," I can't stop it. The twelve step programs advocate "fake it til you make it." Act the way you wish you were and eventually...
My depression lifted! I'm SO grateful. Last Tuesday I went to one of my part-time jobs managing a co-working space, and when I started interacting with people I noticed that I felt like smiling for the first time in weeks. In the next moment I noticed that I felt...
HA HA HA HA HA! https://twitter.com/ChicanaOnEdge/status/971088839522603008
Previous post on weight & health: Weight loosening I recently revised the labels on my blog. If you go to the labels cloud in the right column (in desktop view) and click on fatness, you'll see that I've been obsessed with food, diets, exercise, losing and gaining...
When I found out that the husband of a friend had died I first felt sad, then angry. It makes me furious that so many people want to die, but instead people like her man die. But it's a random, godless world so there's no place to direct my anger. Everything just...
Inspired by the final blog post of Obesio the Loser, a former online-friend, here's a list of stuff I've noticed over the decades. 1. Sometimes it gets better. Sometimes it doesn't. 2. No two people are exactly alike, but few people are genuinely special. 3. I still...
This is what you can do when I'm so depressed that I sit there like a zombie and stare into space or can't stop crying. This might not apply to anyone else, but it's good for me. 1. Give me your full attention. 2. Say nothing. Just sit there in silence even if it's...