Maya Angelou said, "There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." A year ago I knew my mother didn't have long to live, but she didn't want anyone to know, so I had to blog about death without letting on why I was focused on that. That was very...
Today I fit into my size 14 blouse again, with no dieting! Using Dr. Joe Dispenza's meditation technique, I'm just not as hungry. Being able to do a full yoga plow pose is now closer. It's stunning to me that I haven't restricted food or increased exercise, but...
Tuesday, March 25th would have been my sixth wedding anniversary, but the divorce was final on 7 February, so this is my first non-anniversary. I wasn't expecting this week to be so hard, but I keep remembering what I was doing six years ago. Thinking about Bob makes...
I often keep my apartment windows open all day, even in 10 degrees, just to stay comfortable. Since 2011, no matter how chilly others were in a meeting room, I was always fine. For years now, when I come inside from even the most freezing Chicago weather, I...
This NPR story completely supports what I know about the power of changing the story you tell yourself. Listen to Editing Your Life Stories Can Create Happier Endings. Changing the endings of some of my worst childhood memories is exactly what I did with Carol Moss,...
This will be the first Christmas I spend without my mother alive. I wonder if others have experienced anything like this with their parents: while I remember good times with my mother, she was abusive to me even into my adulthood, making me relieved when she died. My...
A month ago, I began reading Dr. Joe Dispenza’s Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One. It explains how our thoughts and feelings affect our physical and material state. He basically says that with focus and meditation you can...
For most of my life cigarettes were emotionally unmarked for me. No one in my family smoked and I didn't have any particularly good or bad experiences with friends who smoked, so cigarette smoke stayed quite neutral. I didn't want to breathe it while I was eating and...
Guess what? I'm feeling better. The combination of the tapping and crying I did earlier in the week, having a turbo-level chiropractor visit, re-reading my positive blog posts and support from friends has pulled me out of my crying jag. Dr. Ashley Frer can work...
I've been scraping around for about a week now, missing my post-husband (I call him that because we'll be legally divorced in a few months), feeling the emptiness of my beautiful one-bedroom apartment, crying, EFT tapping, resting and then crying more. I understand...
Catherine Shanahan's Deep Nutrition asserts that what our mothers ate even before they were pregnant with us affects how our bodies grow and our capacity for health. Likewise, the model for relationships that our caretakers provided when we were children affects how...
And on days when I’m not feeling as content as my last post indicates, I mourn the end of my marriage. My marriage only lasted five years, but it was good and now it’s over. I cry and tap and cry and let the grief pass through.
Is there anyone else out there who avoids their home town because going there doesn't evoke good memories? Today I head out there one more time. It seems many people enjoy visiting the place they grew up because there are still people there who they enjoy seeing:...
May has always been a crappy month for me. I dislike the loss of winter with its quiet, soothing cover of clouds and coldness. I'm also prone to spring allergies, but mostly I don't react well to Mother's Day. Or at least I didn't in the past. For a long time I've...
Previous post on weight & health: Stranger Here: a memoir on weight loss surgery I'm still struggling to accept my new body, the one I've grown into since I stopped my lifelong punishment of starving and binge-ing. After years of forcing myself to stay a size...