Chicana on the Edge

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When I Clean the Toilet

When I clean the toilet, I close my eyes. I go into a deep state of denial about what I'm doing and imagine that I'm scrubbing an already sparkling clean toilet. I work hard on every inch to guarantee that when I do open my eyes, all I'll see is a gleaming surface.I...

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White Like Heaven

BLIZZARD! This is why I moved to the Midwest in 1993. Oh, yeah. I experienced my first blizzard in Ithaca, New York in 1993. It was great. My second was here in Chicago in 1999, but by coincidence I was very ill and spent the whole time in bed. This is my first...

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Regina Rodriguez

Back when I decided to get serious about music, I hired someone to build a website that told people my music. I carefully wrote the copy and gave him the photographs and lyrics to publish. It was 2001 so I didn't really know what I was doing. As early websites often...

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On Thanksgiving…

I am grateful to feel grateful at all. This has been a very hard year even though Bob and I weren't even dealing with a financial crisis or losing a home or anything like that. But obviously major surgery causes its own kind of stress. My depression depleted my...

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On the Eighth Day of Thanksgiving…

Disclaimer: since I became properly obese, I re-read these old posts and see my body dysmorphia and self-hatred and obsession with food and weight. It's sad. I'm grateful that I've finally started to lose the twelve pounds I put on over my awful, wretched summer of...

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On the Seventh Day of Thanksgiving…

I'm grateful for being an American. I never felt this way until I left the country for the first time in my life and finally used a passport at the age of 44. I went to Peru and Bolivia. There I saw what my life could have been if my grandparents hadn't hauled...

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On the Fifth Day of Thanksgiving…

I'm grateful for my new cell phone. This is why I have a new cell phone: In 2006, my husband's company began paying for his cell phone. In 2008, they got him a BlackBerry. I was so envious, I insisted that we get me a BlackBerry, too. We could afford it, since we...

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Middle-Aged

Middle-Aged

Bob and I had drinks at The Wit Hotel in downtown Chicago last night. He took this photo which shows me the schoolteacher I could have been.

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Getting Out the Front Door

Some people spend their adulthoods moving from one career accomplishment to another. Some pour themselves into raising families and/or building a long-lasting marriage. Some improve their communities, help build companies, nurture their extended family or tend...

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